Not In Front Of The Kid

shut it
shut it all out
stop it
stop it all now

i'm teenaged again
trying to pretend
that all is well
i hide in my shell
away from the pain
and all the mind strain

i can't stand this
everyone's pissed
at each other why
don't they shy
away from it
why do they give a


fighting to fight
yellng to yell
if you try you just might
feel oh so well


so give it a shot
i really think you ought
to make amends
i guess it all depends

on your ability
the try try again mentality
one day it may work and
everything will be just grand


fighting to fight
yellng to yell
if you try you just might
feel oh so well


shut it
shut it all out
stop it
stop it all now

Never Nevermind

will you join me in time?
come along for the ride
are you breathing like i am?
are you synching my mind?

thoughts running through my mind
kind of a mess but neat enough
happens all the time
yeah i feel like sunspots and dark blue rain
can you join me in this never nevermind?

i'm pacing forth and back again
worked up and thinking loud
my impossible insides
never bring me up never let me down
and i'm on a high low plain

will you join me in time?
come along for the ride
are you breathing like i am?
are you synching my mind?

drunk on the love again
worked up and without care
my impossible outsides
always bring me up always let me down
and i'm on a low high plain

thoughts walking through my mind
kind of neat but mess enough
happens all the time
yeah i feel like moon craters and umbrellas
can you join me in this never nevermind?

will you join me in time?
come along for the ride
are you breathing like i am?
are you synching my mind?

Sun On My Parade

i find comfort in the shadows
blackness is my companion
she's so good to me
that's why it's so hard when there's...

sun on my parade
when it all comes casting down
it makes me want to hide
to run back to my bride

i feel so good when she's around
she lifts me up when i'm so down down down
she's the best damn drug in town
she keeps me afloat when i'm about to drown

and no i'm not sick
and nothing is wrong
i'm just living a little different
and i've found where i belong
that's why it's so hard when there's...

sun on my parade
when it all comes casting down
it makes me want to hide
to run back to my bride

my sweet darkness, don't leave me

Implode

i don't need help
i just hate myself
i don't want to be here
i just want to disappear

go away never come back
nobody cares
i'm not jack

everything always goes awry
everything always makes me cry
the tears are invisible
they are indestructable

i'll never amount to anything
i'm worth nothing to everyone
what a waste
i'm done

Monger

such a mess you are
look at what you've done
somehow you still stand
yet you've fallen long ago

how low can you go?
do you have your limits
or are you delusional enough
that you'll never sink too far

someone should really
wake you from that dream
that you call your life

so proud you are of all you've done
ruining it all for everyone
you act just like royalty
well down with the king, yeah
down with the king

how long can you hold your place?
propped up by lies written on your face
i can see your knees getting weak
is that blush in your cheeks?

and i am not your ally
and i am not your friend
and i hope you choke (again)

lie in the deathbed that you've made

Somewhere Else (A Dream)

fallen
into you completely
we are one
our love intertwined
it will never die

Womb

it all comes rushing in
the warmth i used to know
i feel so secure
i don't want to let go

does she feel it too?
the connection is still there
it never went away
always layed to bare

the feeling that i get
holding her again
it's no stranger to me
can i hold it in?

i feel so consoled
and a sense of relief
wrapped in her embrace
i never want to leave

A Photograph Named Desire

"Desire" - From a series of photographs taken using a Motorola V3 0.3 megapixel camera phone in the summer of 2005. Click image for full size.

Away

what am i to do?
ther's no one here
and it's all on me
tired and worn all through
so blind that i can see

everything i've felt
all the things i've loved
i've scared it all away
away


shaking deep inside
and i'm so afraid
i've got to stay alive
i've got to find a way

but i can't go back

can i face it now?
there's no one here
and it's all on me
tired and worn all through
so blind that i can see

can i get it back?
all the things i love
i've scared them all away
away


another day goes by
and i'm so afraid
i cannot say goodbye
i've got to find a way

still i can't go back

can i start anew?
there's no one here but me
tired and worn all through
so blind that i can see

and i won't look back

away
away
a way...