Release (A Eulogy)

been stuck here most of my life

trapped here as long as i can recall

i've tried to leave it all behind

but did i ever really leave at all

fragments would remain inside

and they would always hold me back

but i am so much stronger now

and this time i am on the attack

rip it out of my mind

strip it from my soul

i was never of your kind

it's time to fill this, whole

this time i will make it

laughing as the sky turns black

wiping the blood from the razor

and never looking back

Lull A Bye

the bottom of a bottle

just a mouthful away

like a small child begging

come out and play

it hits like a brick 

right in the face

all has subsided

all is displaced

problem solved

after so many years

one last breath

no more tears

hitting the floor

it all turns so white

say to the stars

goodnight goodnight 

Redshift

covered in snow

talking to walls

everything is different now

but you don't know

run from it all

hide in the night

staying in the shadows now

don't let me fall

i want to see it spill from your lips

roll off your forked tongue into my ears

our spades on our sleeves

there would be no more fears

i want to hear it echo aloud

solidify it in my hurt mind

let's take off our gloves

it's time to be unkind

you're not the one

you know by now

take a hammer and break this

this silent vow

can't live this way

it's all a lie

throw things to the vultures now

why should we try

i want to see it spill from your lips

roll off your forked tongue into my ears

our spades on our sleeves

there would be no more fears

i want to hear it echo aloud

solidify it in my hurt mind

let's take off our gloves

it's time to be unkind

only way out

is to give in

smash it all to pieces yeah

let's scream and shout

time to let go

time to be free

feel the force of the redshift

ending the show

i want to see it spill from your lips

roll off your forked tongue into my ears

our spades on our sleeves

there would be no more fears

i want to hear it echo aloud

solidify it in my hurt mind

let's take off our gloves

it's time to be unkind

unkind

unkind

unkind

don't hit rewind

Puzzles

she says she doesn't want to

but sometimes i wonder why

we fit like puzzles

she makes me feel like i can fly

she says i'm over it

but her eyes say otherwise

together we could make it

together we could stop this lie

say it to me

won't you be my comeback kid

take me to the moon and 

never look back

forget all the things we did

it's a new life now

things aren't as they were

fly me to oblivion

never look back

you are the magic cure

let's drop all the foolishness

you're just as soft as me

won't you take it all away

we can finally be free

see i have this one in mind

and her name is you

take away my red glass rose

take away my blood red blues

say it to me

won't you be my comeback kid

take me to the moon and

never look back

forget all the things we did

it's a new life now

things aren't as they were

fly me to oblivion

never look back

you are the magic cure

a pill in my mouth

a needle in my skin

you are my aching flesh

you are my favorite sin

so stick it to me

my porcelain doll

no cracks on the face

i'll always break your fall

say it to me

won't you be my comeback kid

take me to the moon and

never look back

forget all the things we did

it's a new life now

things aren't as they were

fly me to oblivion

never look back

you are the magic cure

bring it to me

let it wash over my gray heart

come to my rescue

before i fall apart

What Happened To Yesterday

it started out kind of slow

we sit for a few hours

afraid to make a move

but this time is all ours

later on it happened

we made a connection

it was a stand-off we were

waiting for affection

you have me

have me by the soul

stuck like glue

what happened to

yesterday i knew you

yesterday was fine

yesterday things came true

yesterday you were mine

the words they

they came out so hard

like a brick into glass

now i'm in shards

it cuts so deep

i try to run

pick up the pieces

without you it's no fun

you have me

have me by the soul

stuck like glue

what happened to

yesterday i knew you

yesterday was fine

yesterday things came true

yesterday you were mine

i am all alone now

here it is so black

i am lost without you

won't you please come back

walking through my life

you know it's not the same

no hand to hold now

dealing with the pain

you have me

have me by the soul

stuck like glue

what happened to

yesterday i knew you

yesterday was fine

yesterday things came true

yesterday you were mine

in your hands is my heart

no you're not another heather

you know we're not always apart

when i sleep we're together

don't wake me up

Remix Now Available

"me, i'm not (key of b remix)" has been uploaded to the nine inch nails site and has been approved.  

to listen, click here.  

That Dizzy Feeling

teach me how to swim

cause you got me drownin'

engulfing me like a flame

burning from within

you know i'm so into you

do with me what you will

anything in the name of

i'm not just seeking a thrill

you can like it or not

but i'm here to stay

attached to you at the lips

no matter what you say

take me in

from within

make me grin

hold me tight i'll make your head spin

take me in

from within

make me grin

hold me tight i'll make your head spin

hidden from me now

your feelings wrapped up tight

you can be flight as you wanna be

but baby i'm all fight

won't give up on this

it feels so good to give in

in every way a part of you

stick me with your sharpest pin

stitch me up now please

and just give me a try

you make me whole again

and you know that's no lie

take me in

from within

make me grin

hold me tight i'll make your head spin

take me in

from within

make me grin

hold me tight i'll make your head spin

you wanna take it slow

well that's fine with me

i'll take you any way

that i can get you (please)

not just along for the ride

it's all so sublime

no i'm not done yet

i wanna make you mine

not sure what comes next

i know you're hesitating

it's okay make your move

i'll be here waiting

take me in

from within

make me grin

hold me tight i'll make your head spin

take me in

from within

make me grin

hold me tight i'll make your head spin

reVamped

as you can see, the main site is now back at blogger.  i found it much more convenient to manage than designing the webpage from the ground up.  hope you enjoy the new layout.

recently nine inch nails released a dvd with all the multitrack files from "year zero" on it.  i've imported them into garageband and have been working on a remix of "me, i'm not".  it will be posted to the nine inch nails remix website when it is completed.